Two weeks ago I had the opportunity to FaceTime w/ my brother. The first thing I said to him was, "Whoa, you've gained weight!" (Disclaimer....he needed to! He would even say that he needed to!) Naturally what I meant was that I noticed that he looked healthier and not so sickly. But instead of, "You look like you are feeling better," or "You look really good," or some other more neutral comment, I exclaimed rather bluntly that I could tell he had gained weight. It was like I was some old Chinese woman with no qualms in yelling out, “你长胖了!” (ni zhang pang le) which is "You grew fat!"
Last week we had to go find some cheap flip flops or sandals to wear as house shoes here. You take your shoes off at the door and slip on a pair of sandals to wear around the house in most Asian countries, so when we went back to America in January, Logan couldn't stand it to walk around the house barefoot, and we both found ourselves wanting to take our shoes off at the door. Bare feet in the house didn't bother me as much then, but once we arrived here in Thailand and I didn't have my trusty grey Crocs to wear around the house, I almost went crazy. I'm rocking some awesome pink and white flip flops now, and life feels much more normal. :)
This last incident is from a couple of months ago when we were in America, and I'm still trying to figure it out. I think my reaction was a little personality, had a little to do w/ the fact that it involved my grandmother, and maybe also a little to do w/ me spending time in a country where sometimes you have to fight for what you want and you routinely stand in line at the post office or bus station w/ your hands on your hips and your feet spread out wide in order to block off anyone trying to get in front of you. Basically all that happened was that I straight up told the doctor that what she was asking my grandmother to do was unacceptable and that there was surely some other option for her in retrieving some medical history/medical release that was needed for a procedure to be done. Anyways, I'm pretty sure I got my way, and then a few days later my mom informed me that my grandmother was a little shocked at how aggressive and adamant I had been. I just simply had no problem telling the doctor and the staff exactly how it was going to work, just like I usually don't have a problem telling the post office that I know I don't have a slip for the package that I am asking about, but I can see the big white USPS box that is on the back shelf, and I know its for me!
Anyways, I am happy to hold onto my American identity, and I am happy to add some Asian influence to my life as well. Sometimes its just shocking to see what attitude or preference I suddenly express that used to not be there!
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